Thursday, May 23, 2013

In the past two years...



...So much has happened. Its hard to believe that snowy night I blindly chose Milwaukee as my next hometown was during my senior year of college in 2010. So much has happened. I came in to City Year as a shy 21-year-old, fresh out of college in rural Ohio and not so fresh out of my urban roots in New York. A newly retired varsity athlete, I was eager to reinvent myself. I was eager to challenge myself, to do something I never thought I wanted to do – work with kids.
In reflecting on my past two years of service, I am reminded of a quote by Isaac Newton: “If I have seen further than others, it is by standing on the shoulders of giants.” I am proud of the work I have accomplished, the ways I have changed for the better, the growth my students have made, the growth of HLCS and City Year’s partnership – but none of this would have been possible if certain “giants” had not done some serious work before me.

First, to all of the City Year partner teachers – Ms. Holt, Ms. Swenson, Ms. Schmitz, Ms. Jackson, Ms. C. Williams, Mr. P., Mrs. Montemurri, and Ms. Manning – thank you. It is nothing short of a privilege to partner in your classrooms and work together for a common goal of helping students, I stand on your shoulders. To Dr. Baez, your leadership is something I admire, and your partnership with City Year is something of enormous value; to Mrs. Mosely-Magee, thank you for jumping into HLCS with both feet! I stand on both your shoulders. To the entire staff of HLCS, thank you for not only welcoming this year’s and last year’s City Year team with open arms, but also for holding us to a high standard. I love the community that exists within our school building, I love knowing every staff member by name, and I’m grateful to have worked at HLCS for these past two years. I stand on all of your shoulders.
Next, to the 2011-2012 City Year team – Ms. Cassie, Mr. A., Ms. Passionelle, Ms. Lexie, Mr. Payne, Mr. Isaia, Ms. Camille, and Mr. Jake – I stand on your shoulders. You taught me how to be strong and persevere, how to find my voice (and use it), how perception is reality, and how to be comfortable in my own skin.

And finally, to the 2012-2013 City Year team – Ms. Jen, Ms. Erin, Ms. Janessa, Ms. Meagan, Mr. Montell, Ms. Mo, and Mr. Zak – I stand on your shoulders. From you, I’ve learned about the power of reflection, the power of celebrating small wins, and the power of the words, ‘thank you’. You have let me be my complete goofy self in front of you. You all have motivated me daily with your stories of your students and your teachers, your willingness to grow, your unwavering commitment to excellence, and your appreciation for one another. I know you recognize what a privilege it is to serve at Hopkins Lloyd, and I hope you know how much you all mean to me. I will never forget any of you.

It has been an amazing year full of learning, growth, smiles, perspective, high fives, reflection, relay races, tears, and food from Coffee Makes You Black. Would I go back and do it all again? In a heartbeat.

Monday, February 25, 2013

Happy.




I've been reading The Happiness Project by Gretchen Rubin, a book about a woman living in NYC who embarks on a year journey to make herself happier. At the end, it provides guidelines to the reader for him/her to create his/her own happiness project. I am thinking about starting one, because, well...why not?


What makes you feel good? What activities do you find fun, satisfying, or energizing?
-Dancing, reading, writing, listening to John Mayer, Florence + the Machine, the Beatles, drinking coffee alone, drinking wine/beer with others, traveling, exercising, creating things/being crafty, being in the sun, looking at maps, taking pictures, challenging myself intellectually/physically, making other people laugh, laughing myself, helping people, teaching people, painting murals
-This list is very similar to previous lists I've created, with just a few things changed. Interesting.

What makes you feel bad? What are sources of anger, irritation, boredom, frustration, or anxiety in your life?
-Not getting enough sleep. UGH, when people don't listen to me, being around people for more than 10 hours a day, being disorganized, the fact that my carbon footprint is larger than I'd like it to be, the fact that I haven't been out of the country in almost 2 years, that some don't believe in the power of young people, prejudices and -isms, when people ask for advice, don't take it, and continue to make the same mistakes, when people refuse to self-reflect, when I don't have enough money for rent, pre-conceived notions about me because of the way I look

Is there any way in which you don't feel right about your life? Do you wish you could change your job, city, family situation, or other circumstances? Are you living up to your expectations for yourself? Does your life reflect your values?
-I sometimes wish I could change my city, but I don't know if I want to start over building relationships in a new city because I love so many people that I've met in Milwaukee. I also love the job I have in Milwaukee. I wish I could travel more, speak more languages, help more kids. I wish I didn't live in such a segregated city. I hate change in some instances, but know it's necessary, and love it in others. 
-I sometimes think life would be easy if I could go through it not being tied down at all to a place or to people. But then I think of how much I would miss out on if I didn't stop and take the time to really invest in other people. I think of how lonely I'd be if I lived alone. I think of how much I wouldn't know. I truly wish I could bundle all the wonderful people I've ever met together and take them with me as I travel the world, tutoring English, and painting murals. 

Do you have sources of an atmosphere of growth? In what elements of your life do you find progress, learning, challenge, improvement, and increased mastery?
-My service with City Year constantly challenges me and forces growth and reflection. I also found all these elements in figure skating, but my passion for that slowly burned out. At the present time, City Year makes me progress, learn, and master skills, while it also challenges me and improves me. That is the selfish side of the work I do. I also, through City Year, have the opportunity to make others progress, learn, and master skills, while challenging and improving them. 
-If it ain't broke, don't fix it...?

Sunday, February 24, 2013

Because paper is flammable.

The journal from whence this blog post came.


...I am copying my running list of New Things I've Done (c. 2009) here:

-figure skated internationally
-traveled to Europe alone (Lux, Germany, Belgium, France)
-paid my own bills
-owned personalized checks
-spent Christmas without my parents
-completed a New York magazine crossword puzzle
-subscribed to the Wall Street Journal
-studied for an exam until 5:30 am
-rented a house with 6-8 other girls
-had a one-night stand
-shopped at Harrod's, London, UK
-studied Italian
-went to a Passover seder
-went to the Czech Republic
-went to China
-went on a typical college spring break to Florida
-had a mimosa with breakfast
-went to a Bible study
-had my own double bed
-stayed for 2 months in a foreign country (Italy)
-swam in the Adriatic and Tyrrhenian seas
-swam in Lake Como
-written journal entries in a foreign language
-watched a movie in a foreign movie theater (Harry Potter 6, Florence, Italy)
-saw The Last Supper by da Vinci
-got an A on an Italian oral exam
-competed in the Senior division
-tried absinthe
-done an Irish Car Bomb
-climbed to the top of the duomos in Florence and Milan
-owned Birkenstocks - and loved them
-paid for and stayed in a hotel room by myself (Milan, Italy)
-drank before 11 am (champagne after my Italian 305 final)
-tried pesto - and loved it
-successfully made pasta
-finished an entire bottle of wine by myself
-went to San Marino
-spent the night on an airport floor
-went to Switzerland
-went to Belgium
-went jet skiing
-driven 10 hours, Oxford, OH - NYC, NY, alone
-played ultimate frisbee - and loved it
-watched 4th of July fireworks in NYC
-graduated from college
-published a photograph
-saw John Mayer live
-studied Portuguese
-quit figure skating
-developed my own photographs
-lived in a LES, Manhattan apartment
-commuted daily on the subway
-driven 16 hours, NYC, NY - Milwaukee, WI, alone
-went to Malaysia
-went to Thailand
-had a 15 hour work day
-rented a car
-went inside a mosque
-went inside a Baha'i temple
-took a spontaneous trip to Chicago (train ticket & hotel room booked within 24 hours of departure)
-went gluten-free for 40 days
-managed 7 of my peers
-gone a year without dyeing my hair
-saw Jerry Seinfeld live
-went to a Milwaukee Brewers baseball game
-went to a Milwaukee Bucks game
-toured a brewery
-rowed crew
-saw Pres. Obama speak live
-spoke in front of 1000 people
-slept at Northeastern University
-climbed to the top of Milwaukee's City Hall
-got an oil change
-took a latin dance class


...to be continued. At least now I have it backed up somewhere. It's interesting...the majority of these deal with travel and alcohol. 

In re-typing this, I flashed through every experience, and I love that I don't regret any of these things for one single second. I probably will never drink absinthe again because it made me hallucinate, but it brought me closer to the people I was studying abroad with. I have never been in water so cold as Lake Como, but it was so exhilarating, so purifying for my soul. I may not ever be able to fluently journal in Italian again, but I have the record that I was once at that level of proficiency. I hope I never have to finish off an entire bottle of wine again, but the night(s) I did that in Italy were some of the most memorable. My life, in just the past 4 years, has been so enriched by all these things, and all these things in some way or another have led me to the life I'm currently living in Milwaukee. Oh yeah, I forgot to add 'lived in WISCONSIN' to the list. That's certainly something I never thought I'd do.

Check back for more. I am young, wild, and free - and I will add to this list. Or what's a life for?